Finding the positives whilst injured – walking in the sunshine

So I’m almost looking forward to going back to work and having a set routine (almost, not quite). Because I am exhausted! I’m supposed to be feeling relaxed, but it’s been like an emotional rollercoaster with this stupid injury.

So after two full rest days on Sunday and Monday (well I went running and swimming), I had two successful kayaking sessions. A relaxed 10k on Tuesday and a full on session on Wednesday during which I felt strong and fast. And my arm was fine!

When I woke up on Thursday, it was instant pain. Even just flexing my fingers made my forearm hurt. It’s this really wierd painful, quite sharp ache. I knew I wouldn’t be able to race this weekend, which is horrible because it’s a low pressure race i’ve been looking forward to.

I kept it together most of that morning, stayed calm and messaged the girl I was supposed to be racing with in K2 (double man kayak) to cancel. Then I rang my dad to let him know, and all the sadness came pouring out. Anyone who is a regular injury sufferer will understand the frustration – have a look at my post on my journey with injury

I honestly don’t think anyone has changed their mind about something as many times as I have this week. Do I take this year off kayaking? I feel mentally and physically drained. I’m not feeling particularly happy. I will always be fitness obsessed but I would like to focus a bit more on running, yoga, even just morning walks.

I want to wake up in the morning and listen to my body and have a choice about whether or not I want to work out, without a feeling of guilt. My happiness means more to me than a European medal. And i’m not happy right now. Am I continuing because of what I want or because of my fear of letting certain people down?

Anyway, after that minor breakdown I started yesterday and today with an early morning walk in the beautiful sunshine. I swear there is nothing better to improve your mood. Besides there were so many dog walkers out so I got to say hi to a lot of dogs.

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Walking by the River with music in sunshine – on the point of Desborough Island yesterday
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Such stunning light today! Walking on the Wey Navigation
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Millpond locks on the Wey Navigation – there is car parking here too
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The Mill – and whoever owns those apartments is luckkkky

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jenny1louise

Fed up of my own lack of self confidence holding me back. This is me trying new things, pushing myself outside my comfort zone and sharing my love for sustainable fitness.

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