A week of work, training and decision making

I survived the whole working week and I didn’t get a cold! (I had two back to back before half term – urgh). I can’t believe this will be my ninth week of being a teaching assistant. That time has gone so quickly.. I work for Surrey Supply, and honestly as a first job after uni it is so good. The pay isn’t bad, but I should definitely be keeping a closer eye on how much i’m spending.

I’m not sure I want to teach forever but i’ve found it so eye opening. In the beginning I was posted everywhere. Honestly one morning they rang me at 7:45am to tell me I was no longer going to a school 5 minutes down the road, but one absolutely miles away! I hadn’t even showered yet and it took me a whole hour to get there during the school run.

I now have a semi-permanent position looking after a little autistic girl in year two. Obviously I knew of autisim but before this job I hadn’t really met anyone with it before. The autistic children i’ve met have all been really bright. It’s not their natural intelligence but the way they interact with others and percieve their surroundings which makes school harder for them.

So for example understanding the concept of sharing and focusing on one task for a prolonged period of time is more difficult for her. This does make my work day interesting and go super fast because every 30 minutes is something different: maths, dancing, english, football etc. I swear I rack up over 10,000 steps every day. Also I absolutely love this little kid already. Every small breakthrough makes your heart melt.

Training wise I’ve mainly been doing plyometric stuff in the gym. I also went swimming one evening, literally, the pool only opens to lane swimmers at 8pm. It’s such a nice feeling though after you’ve done your session and you’re driving back home in the dark and the rain with your music.

The weekends are still quite weird without kayaking, I went for a long walk on Saturday (not as good weather this time sadly). I think i’m going to try paddling tommorow. I’ve been considering taking this year off from kayaking, but i’ve paid for my travel and accomodation for a race in Amsterdam in April. So I guess i’ll make it till then.

I know to anyone else this doesn’t sound like a big deal, but for me the possibility of  voluntarily not kayaking, even for one year, is huge. It’s been part of my life for a decade. Two years ago I wouldn’t have been able to picture my life without it.

I wish I could look into the future and see all the different paths I might take from this moment. Maybe if I continue this year I could make it to Euros. Maybe taking a year off now would actually make me a better kayaker in 2020. I do still have two full years left as an under 23 paddler. Or maybe I decide i’m happier without kayaking in my life.

I think it’s important to keep perspective. I know there will be more important decisions in my life, but still this is what matters to me right now.

Walking is good for the soul – even in the rain. This is Addlestone park.
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The canal is beautiful in all weather.

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Fed up of my own lack of self confidence holding me back. This is me trying new things, pushing myself outside my comfort zone and sharing my love for sustainable fitness.

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